Dreams & Energy ~ Men & Parenting

I experienced a headache last night and earlier in the evening. For those who know me this is not a common occurrence. The 'headache' was just on my forehead, then a bit at the very top of my head.

I woke up around 5 a.m. this morning still experiencing the 'headache' sensation... then went back to dreamland.

I dreamt I was in this wonderful place, there was a group of us and we were meditating. Afterwards I was exploring this building that was full of beautiful and ancient things. The rooms were interesting and a treat for the eyes and other senses.

I dreamt that my kids were with me and I was trying to get them to settle down to sleep so I could go to the room next door and learn something. I walked into the room and my father was there, with others I did not know. And then I heard my 2 yr old so I left and went back to her.

Then all of the sudden I was laying down with my eyes closed and my 6th chakra (3rd eye) opening and releasing energy (and receiving it). Huge energy flow in and out, a feeling of warmth and release. I woke up (no headache) and begun my day with this dream very much still detailed in my minds eye...

It is quite a few hours later and I can still feel the remnants of that feeling now. My future self continuing to unfold.

This past week has been really interesting for me. I have started my summer project "Leaders on Leadership" and I am still preparing for next weekends "Conscious Parenting Workshop". I am discovering there is still so much for me to learn about myself and I welcome each feeling that brings new information into my awareness.

On Friday when I arrived home I had an e-mail in my inbox. It was from a woman who was interested in my parenting workshop... she and her husband. When I read those words a wave overcame my body. I felt anxiety in my solarplex. I was nervous and didn't know what to think. What I also notice now is that I forgot to breath into it.

When Mike came home from work I told him about my anxiety over the possibility of a Father coming to my workshop. Mike being Mike said "Why do you man bash in them?" and I said "No, of course not. All of the sudden I am experiencing feelings of worthlessness and being incapable of providing anything that may be of use to this man" BINGO... I still held filters within myself that told me I would be dismissed in the presence of a man in my program. I was preparing to make myself smaller... to dumb it all down.

And then Mike said the perfect thing to me "If he wasn't open to what you have to offer, he wouldn't be interested in coming at all." And I welcomed breath right down to the base of my spine in that moment. All the uncertainties I was experiencing vanished when I breathed into the truth of his words.

SO how fantastic is it that a father is wanting to consider a different way of co-creating his family with his children and wife? I now will welcome men too, to come and become curious about your children's brilliance.

And my lesson, I don't have to make myself small because of my preconceived notions (that no longer serve me) of what men would or would not "get".

We really do all have it within us... regardless of sex... some are just more awake then others.

I welcome what tomorrow brings... there is always more.