Keeping Yourself, in the presence of another

The funny thing about life is that it is organic... it grows, it thrives, it retreats, it ebbs, it flows.

I am once again in a place of transition. I've ended a major relationship with the father of my 2 children. My house is for sale. I'm coming to find out what it means for me to be a single woman again (as the person I am now). And there is a possible new job on my horizon.

As each week passes a little more freedom is found. As the weather warms each day a new song sings within my soul. This indeed is a time for transformation. A time for me to celebrate in the newly found freedom of what I have and have FUN doing so.

And I have been sick... curious that. It seems I got sick when I started to remember and explore the fun I used to have. It's been pretty steady I'm in my 3rd weekend of being sick. All my symptoms are on my left side of my body. Sore throat, Fever (all of me), rash, now my left eye has a cold in it. What am I not paying attention to?

As I pondered this last night soaking in my tub it came to my awareness that I need to make sure I do not lose myself in the freedom I am experiencing. I still need to nurture and grow who I am as I am engaging with others. I need to remember who I am and remember to check in with myself to see if the impulse to do or not do something is serving me. Is it my gut instinct? Or am I just going with the flow because it feels good? Does it matter?

Why is it that for 2 years I could be around sick people and not get sick, yet now I started this off on my own? It there more to it then viruses, infections and germs? I think so. Being run down, exhausted and not taking care of yourself generally makes you more susceptible to becoming sick.

Perhaps it is simply all I have been going through exhausting me. However I know that for me thrown into that mix, is keeping myself in the presence of another.

Whatever will tomorrow bring? Life, Love, Laughter... after all I can create it. Want to know a secret? So can you!