Coffee, Coversations & Catalysts

Had a lovely afternoon with some of my favourite people. Lots messages come up for me to pay attention to.

Celine was talking about something this afternoon and a big wave came up in me. I am being my authentic self at work and this is good. Yet at home I am not fully engaging in my life, not yet fully stepping into my SELF.

And what am I waiting for? What if I wake up tomorrow and my world has completely changed? Will I have regrets that I didn't authentically live my life with my family? Will I regret taking for granted the notion of there is always tomorrow? Why am I waiting?

When I am at home I am still my "culturally conditioned self" to some extent. At work people can really see the changes in me because I have no worries about living it. Why am I still afraid to decloak in front of my family and friends. What is still going on within me that I am not processing, that I feel the need to keep myself small in front of those I claim to love the most?

Many questions for me to consider. And there is always more.

Thank you to those who came to my Coffee event today, your questions, stories and presence has again invited me to become curious about myself.

I have much to reflect on and discover... am I willing to decloak in front of my family? The answer is yes...the question is when...