The Power of Knowing

What a fantastic 7 days at Oceanstone The weather warmed up considerably for the week (although we were in our course for 12 hours a day) the evenings were fantastic.

On Saturday the 11th of November, at 11 p.m. I was outside on the deck of my cottage writing in my journal, listening to the waves of the ocean crashing on the rocks, looking up in wonder at all of the stars in the sky. Have you ever had the opportunity to look at the sky on a clear night away from city lights? It is truly an amazing sight to see.

The last day I was there (November 17th) the sun was shining around noon. I took some time when we broke for lunch and sat on a rock in the middle of a brook by the ocean, and just enjoyed all the sensations. I managed to catch that place and time in my journal. "Sitting in the middle of the brook, by the ocean, the sun shining, the mild November wind blowing, the bubbling of the brook, the crashing of the waves, the smell of the sea and the sound in the distance of a buoy bell. I took off my shoes to walk through the water. To feel I am alive. I have created all of this for my self. I am home. I am free. I am me."

I came into this course "Resourcefulness in Action", not knowing exactly what to expect. I was sure I had it all figured out. I still knew there was more and that I can learn from experiences daily. And yet I still thought I had it all figured out. I thought I knew everything I needed to know about myself and I most definitely know how to deal with difficult situations. And yet... I should have known better.

What I discovered about me during this past week is more than I expected. I came into it thinking I knew, I left with a deep sense of knowing that all I ever need is me. After all it is all about me, just like for you it is all about you, and you, and you.

When I deal with my kids and they are crying, upset, or even enraged. All I need to do is sit with them, in the same room as them, and look at them. So they know I see them, I recognize they are upset/angry/sad, I am there for them, they are legitimate. How often do we send them off to their room to cry in isolation?

I discovered that although I have Decloaked in the workplace I have not done so with my family. I discovered that it is much harder to reveal myself and the changes I have made in my life to the ones I love most. It is difficult to make a transition from cynic, non-confident, smart ass to this wonderfully, motivated, engaging, and ignited leader.

When your family is worried that you may be overstepping your "bounds". I have discovered that "bounds" only exist if you believe they are there to limit you.

When you are so worried about what people in your life will say, you make up stories about how they will react without even knowing that is in fact the case. How many times in our lives to we assume someone will shut us down before we even open our mouths to ask?

Some other words, labels I discovered I still needed to claim or work through came in and out as the days passed. Words I didn't not think were related to me at all. Yet each time one of these 14 magnificent women spoke, their words would evoke something deep within me that I needed to claim to become whole. Many times during this week I witnessed women claim back the power they once lost sometime in their past. There is nothing more amazing and phenomenal then being witness to that.

I have learned that by claiming every experience for myself, I was claiming back some power to make me whole and more connected with my authentic self. That each person I come in contact with is equally as brilliant and full of potential as I am. I have learned that even people I bump up against hold a huge lesson about me some how. We manifest mirror images of our self in this way.

I have claimed the ability to fully engage on by behalf in whichever way I choose. To create my future and design my own destiny. To know that by being exactly who I am will shape the world I live in. My ability. My future. I can just be. And by being, openly, I become a beacon for others to do so as well.

Knowing, deeply knowing, I am all I will need to make it in this world. Knowing that I can claim it. Knowing that I can shape it. Knowing I am me. The power of knowing.