Saturday, July 28, 2007

Standing in the NOW

We talk about inviting and allowing.

We talk about welcoming the waves of information and simply breathing into them to create the space for movement and flow.

And I wonder, why is it very simple for some to move through this and so difficult for others? I think it has to do with the filters, strategies and even the representational systems (visual, auditory, kinesthetic, etc) that we use(d) in our lives up until this point.

For me I was always very "emotional" I would feel things and allow for the waves to come. At that point I would typically choose to stop them or to start playing a tape of past events in my head.

When I didn't stop them and allowed them to wash over my body I would stabilize much more quickly and move on.

When I stopped them I would start to recite the stories in my head to bring the emotions up again, then stop it again and repeat. It is during these times that I would experience "depression" or a long lasting "funk". I fully believe I chose to bring these on myself... I wanted to keep asking the why about a past event because it allowed me to stand at the victim side of the equation. By allowing myself to wallow in my misery that was always brought on by someone else, I received from others much desired attention, in some cases sympathy and/or empathy and a confirmation of my actions / reactions to the event. Rehashing the past served as a tool for me to bring on these strategies. I chose to remove my ownership and control of my life... I chose to live at effect.

There is no reason to ask why continually about something that has already happened.

You ask yourself why sometimes when you are going to engage in behaviours (prior to an event), but to dwell on the why of a historic event is crazy making stuff. It is in the past. It is static. I has already happened, you cannot erase it. Stand in your choice point of the NOW, and choose to accept that as something that has happened and move into what adventures now lie ahead in your life.

The Unknown... or the once known but long forgotten; is often perceived as a scary place to be. Yet if you allow yourself to move past that initial fear and embrace the adventure of discovery... your whole world will shift once again.

I'm not saying to forget about your past... your experiences... your relationships. I am merely suggesting you recognize what you have always known inside. The absolute brilliant beings we are in this world, living life, gaining experience and insights, making mistakes and learning from it all.

Standing int he NOW and choosing always to create new thoughts, insights and ideas. Not rehashing a past experiences that is history. Knowing that past experience served us at that time in our lives and recognizing the growth we have gained from it and moving on...if it is no longer meaningful for us.

It takes a great deal of courage and trust in your self to embrace the unknown. Remember the unique signal you are in this world, allow that to flood your body and stand in the NOW... celebrating your ability to create your own future.

Tomorrow is another day... there is (thankfully) always more.

2 comments:

sarah said...

Thank you for writing this post. I am slowly learning more and more everyday of how to live a more meaningful life and allow life to happen. I very much intellectualize things before I allow myself to feel. Hard habits to break but I am getting there. Thanks so much for being such an awesome person and friend lori. You have no idea what a huge difference you have made in my life. You are so inspiring...truly.

Anonymous said...

I agree with you Sarah, she's an awesome person and a great friend! She inspires not only you and I, but so many other - Lori Walton you ROCK!!!!!

Laura Beaton