Going big... and reeling it back in...

Over the past week I have really allowed myself to engage in the "what if's" of my life.

I have made some huge declarations and set things in motion. Loving it, Living it and moving forward.

Now it's Sunday.

Hmm, I start a new job tomorrow with the Finance Branch in my department. I am excited to work with the people who I will be working with. I am also mindful of how "Monday" will be serving me in the now.

This is a weird feeling for me... I'm not feeling excited about starting this new job today. I'm kind of feeling... empty.

And what comes to mind is how big I allowed myself to plan things out last week. How fantastic my workshop is going to be in April and how many other programs I can get into place in the immediate future, to work with and ignite women, single mothers, and single mothers on assistance.

I am very mindful of what holds PASSION for me in my life... do what you love and love what you do. Those who are successful in life are following their passion, and all of the other cliches.

Today I'm feeling a little empty. I'm feeling a little bit of "it's in all about the details" which is hard to wrap your head around when you have been engaging in the Bigger Picture things in this world.

And I know that getting up and starting this new job tomorrow will be interesting and enjoyable... and it's not what I am passionate about, but it serves me for the NOW.

So as I contemplate tomorrow, I may as well start doing my taxes while I'm in a detail and empty mood.

:o)

Finance... taxes... if anyone knew me as a child and watched me do math they wouldn't be surprised that as a 31 yr old woman I have been known to still count on my fingers...

Bah, thank god there is always tomorrow... and there is always more.