Stopping the Cycle

I had a big night of insights last night and I metabolized quite a bit, yet for this insight I know that it is just the tip of the ice burg.

At the same time I know I have stopped history from repeating itself, by speaking of my past experience.

By voicing it as I see it happening again and saying "Wait, this is how those words affected me.... I don't want to see that happen here."

And it stops... at the very least it will be noticed when it begins to happen and a choice can be made in that moment... "Is this who I am and how I choose to move through my world? Or is this a demon from my past running a tape from my childhood of behavior that may have been modelled to me?"

With that, it already is different. You can no longer not know.

As we move through generations we evolve. We don't have to be our parents, we can be different.

And by no means is that meant to show disrespect to them, they worked with what they had and what was modelled to them by their parents, etc.

It is simply growing and recognizing... if it doesn't feel right to me I don't have to choose this way of parenting my children.

And there is always tomorrow...