Art Workshop Wednesday

We are about to embark on a day of discovery through Art... I'm not sure what type of art we will be creating, what mediums, what context. I know that I am done with the horse, chapter, circles of guilt and of shame. They no longer serve a purpose for me. I will gladly go and let them fall away effortlessly. I am curious as to what creations will extend out of my hand onto the paper. Which expression of myself will emerge? Who have I become to date and who will I become in my future? I can feel something big happening in my body, something huge will be emerging today. I am excited, anxious and waiting with baited breath... just what will be created as I know have space, once again.

SO what does this mornings creation mean? It began as my "name", as my "courage"... and it transformed into this fantastic powerful flow of movement. Courage is sourced by something more, the blend into the field coming through the core into the word "Courage" feeding it and allowing it to flow through the body of my work and back out into the universe, fed from the dark strength that is transforming into light as it returns to the field. Lots of movement with the sea, It takes me back to one of my first experiences of being in the field during a white feather induction I think with Celine & Cathy, I lost myself and was looking at a fish floating in a body of water, it was a bright fish the surrounding water was dark and isolated.

Today the first image I was drawn to was that of a fish, immense and colourful in the dark water, however along the edges of the water there was other fishes, much smaller, camouflaged almost, and ever present. For me it meant I could be large, immense and colourful, I can be seen as standing alone, yet remain mindful that there is others who are around me, with whom I am ever connected with.

The second image I choose still had the sea around it although I didn't recognize this until recently. It is that of a raven on top of a rock outcropping, majestic and standing alone as a beacon for others to see.

The rock I chose, I chose from afar because of the attractiveness of the out croppings, the nooks and crannies... and as I came close enough I come to see Shit... it is actually a piece of coral... again with the sea.
The sea. The sea represents immensity, fluidity, movement, the field. It represents all of that and more. The sea can be loud and rough, the sea can be calm and quiet. The sea supports life, the sea can also take it. The sea has continual movement, the endless ebb and flow of the tide, the waves crashing upon the shore, or lapping on the shore at times. But always moving, never the same yet is always familiar.

I have come to really love the pencil sketch that has come out of Lori's Courage... and the other art I created during the day. As a good friend of mine has been known to say..."Who Knew?".

Leona was very present this week through out the Whispers from Within Women's Writing Retreat, on my holodeck and that of others. Her beautiful poetry, songs and stories she shared with many of us on Sunday evening before this retreat began still are rippling through my consciousness. So as she once intended to be here this week... although not physically present, her essence has definitely been popping up through this week.

Today was a day of discovery. A day to feel the energy move though my hands and manifest as beautiful creations on the page in front of me... Creations that I am definitely going to hang up for display at home. After today I feel that there is creativity in all of us, and one of the tricks to bring it out is to focus on one word that holds deep meaning for you and expand on it. It was truly amazing to see the magnificent pieces all of the women created, I look forward to continuing with this medium as well as with words.

Today I found the creative me, the me that reveled in the sound of the graphite on the paper, the me that smudged and blended with my fingers, the me that used my nails to remove excess wax. I played, I created, I expressed, I enjoyed, I laughed, I felt, I moved, I am.
Tomorrow is unknown. And I am again so excited to see who I will become tomorrow.