Boundless - Bounded Edition

If I were to leave this body today, what I am, who I have become and who I know I have not yet revealed.

I am huge. I am immense. I am god. I have the capacity to become anything I wish. I am a woman (which was the vessel of my choice). Being a woman has given me my own unique sound. I have a unique power, with passion and spirit. I shape my world, I manifest my future.

I am a force to be reckoned with... yet I will not be swayed by your opinions of me.

I want others to know they have all of this within themselves. I want them to know they are able to shape their own models of the world. If they awaken to the power of their personal potential, "Just who can I become"?

I know as each day passes by, each hour, each minute, I am more than I was.

The Whispers from Within need only to be claimed in your consciousness to own. They will no longer be a nagging feeling somewhere in the pit of your soul. When you claim it into your consciousness you become very clear on it if it truly resonates for you.

As I struggled with decloaking to my spouse... what I was really struggling with was a Whisper from Within.

What I knew I had to say to him, was something I hadn't yet said to myself... and by wanting to decloak to my spouse I would actually have to own it and claim it for me... scary stuff.

whisper... whisper...

The clarity of claiming it in my body... well at least silently by writing it down on paper. Speaking it out loud is a whole different ball game. I gathered my strength and stepped out of my box and told him what I needed him to hear. And lo and behold, my relationship did not fall apart, the world did not crumble as I feared it would. And now it leads me to consider, how important I felt it was for us to be married. For 12 years I have thought this is something I needed from him to prove himself to me... really it was all about my insecurities.

Marriage... marriage is not what I need where I had held a belief for so long this is what I wanted this is what I needed to be complete. This belief does not serve me any longer. Marriage may not be where I want to go right now.

What does marriage (a nominalization) mean to me? Commitment, love, safety & security (in companionship), makes it difficult to leave, bound, not free... yet free. Co-parent, co-create, live, love, free to travel, without guilt. I love him, I am enveloped by his presence, I am comfortable with him... and does that mean we need to be Married???

Can we go along with a marriage respecting each other fully and not losing ourselves? I will not again lose myself, become less than, be small... because I am immense, I am huge, and you can NOT change me. I will not allow myself to be anything but my authentic, evolving self.

I want people (me) to know the bounds they hold true for themselves (myself) are only "held" there by themselves (myself). We are boundless... (I am boundless...) We are limitless... (I am limitless...) I can be free, if I choose to be.

I inspire others, much like I am inspired by others.

I engage in life fully, in a life that holds passion and meaning for me.

I speak my truth, unabashed and unapologetically, as I know my voice can make a difference.

I take up space, I am huge, I am immense, my energy is big and I love it!

I break the thin ice on the puddle just to hear that sound of pure joy from my past.

I stuck out my tongue and tasted the first snowfall of the year, and sang, and smiled in the dark, cold night.

The sound of the fire crackling and popping is inviting. The warmth from the hearth is soothing. I feel so comfortable, I am home. I am god. I am me. I am free.